Chase

1. I've started to feel Bliss move!
2. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving.
3. Chase and I went on a double date to Top Golf the other night!

I could honestly brag about my husband every day all day. He's extremely handsome, talented in every way, he's kind, he's fun, he's really just all around the best! I am so happy with my marriage and with the person I chose to spend eternity with. Now don't get me wrong, we aren't perfect, nor is our marriage. We fight, sometimes a lot. We've yelled at each other, given immature silent treatments, gone to bed angry (gasp, I know). What can I say, we're only human! And honestly, sometimes Chase can drive me totally crazy, but I feel like our marriage wouldn't be our marriage if he didn't!

It was easy for me to fall in love with Chase. From the moment I met him he had me wrapped around his finger. We both attended Dixie State University in 2014 and lived in the same apartment complex. I remember the first time I saw him, I was looking out my second story window on the day all the other freshman were moving in, and I thought to myself, "Oh my, I need to know who that is!" So I had my roommate's boyfriend yell out the window and invite Chase on a hike we were all going on that night. My stomach was in knots as we knocked on Chase's door later that evening, I couldn't wait to meet the guy who I had found so attractive. Chase's tall, dark, and handsome self answered the door and our adventure began! I had even said to one of my friends that night, "he's the one I want, and I'm gonna get him." And I'm so glad I did!

I have loved being with Chase for the past three years. We have both grown so much, and we have always made an effort to grow closer together, rather than apart. I am so proud of the person my husband has become. Chase grew up in an inactive family. Church attendance was not a regular occurrence and the priesthood wasn't present in their home. This was night and day between the two of us, and it was a challenge at first. I tried to force Chase to come to church, or to say prayers and study the scriptures. I would get so frustrated because he just wouldn't do what I wanted him to do! It took me a long time to finally realize that Chase's conversion to the church was going to be one that happened on his own terms. Yes, Chase had been baptized at the age of eight and he had a frail testimony, but he had never truly been converted.

I got off of my high horse and instead of telling Chase he had to go to church, and being mad when he didn't, I began to simply invite him, with hopes that he'd be willing to attend some day. I think becoming a dad really changed Chase's perspective about everything. It was in the first few weeks after having Camden that Chase started coming to church with us. Chase worked hard so that he could bless our sweet little one when Camden was three months old. He willingly attended temple prep classes and met with the missionaries so that we could all be sealed together in the St. George temple. I loved being able to watch first hand all the changes Chase made. Seeing his testimony grow has only strengthened mine.



Now I'm not sure if Chase is fully converted to the gospel. I know he has felt the spirit, and his testimony has grown, but his conversion is between him and his Heavenly Father. Chase still struggles with his church attendance. I was having a conversation on this subject with my mom and I said, "I think the best I can do is be an example to him." My mom, being the wise person she is, said that I shouldn't try to do my best so I can be an example to Chase, I should do my best, just to do my best. And she's right. It's an oxymoron to work on your spiritual growth solely for others to benefit from it. Spiritual growth and progression has to be done by putting yourself first. If you are spiritually progressing, it can not go unnoticed by your spouse, or others around you. It's impossible to ignore the light the gospel gives a person. I think the greatest compliment I have ever received was from one of my patients at work. They said, "I could tell you are a member of the church, you have this light about you." In the document, "The Living Christ," the prophet Joseph Smith describes Christ in one of my favorite ways. He says, " His eyes were a flame of fire... his countenance shone above the brightness of the sun." People who are in tune with the spirit and have strong testimonies truly do have a light about them. I believe this light is a light that mimics our Savior's. Sharing our light is the best way we can share our love of the gospel to others.

I hope that my sweet husband will catch a glimpse of my light, and strive to brighten his own. Like I said, I am so proud of the person he has become. He has grown in leaps and bounds and I'm so blessed to witness his spiritual progression. I truly believe that Bliss will be an incredible testimony strengthener for Chase. He is just as eager to meet her in the celestial kingdom as I am. Chase is undeniably determined, and I know he will do whatever it takes to get there to be with his eternal family.

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